I just wanted to say thank you.

Thank you for all those that stand by me, that lift me up- that help me in my time of need. Thank you to all the amazing people I’ve met on and offline. I am so grateful to know so many amazing people. I am especially grateful for the forgiveness of so many. Thank you for being so sweet to me and making me feel so much better.

I’ve had a rough time lately in my personal life. One part has been a very quiet struggle. This isn’t something I’ve wanted to really share as it has been very personal to me. But, I feel I can now.
For about a year and a half, me and my husband have been trying to get pregnant. For whatever reason, due to the now irregularity of my cycle- we have been unsuccessful and I don’t know if it will ever happen. I’ve always wanted to be a mother- and so I ache at feeling I may never get the chance in this life.
I am 33 years old, and while that is still young for baring children, it won’t always remain so. I have been going through some ups and downs with my feelings about this matter. But thanks to my family, my friends, my faith in God, and even the random support of people I’ve never met online- I have made it through.

So, thank you.

I needed it.

Who better to express my feelings than Pinkamena?

Thanks dahling xD;

Note: I’ve never read the fanfic, but I know enough about it to make this work for me xD;; (plus pinkie pie is my fav char and no other mane char could fit in this role xD)

PS, who knew a pony could flip anyone off eh? lol!

NOSTALGIA TIME!!

I have all these uploaded on my dA, but figured I could post a few on here, just for the fun of it.

Njoi!

Lupes © neopets.com

subetaconfessions2:

You can try and justify your rude behavior all you want, but I will never buy something from you guys again.

I would have been more supportive of you if you had first calmly tried to negotiate. You tell the site what you want, and why without flipping out. Then, if nothing changed…would be the…

I already made my apologies and if you and anyone else that read it can’t accept that, I’m not going to keep asking for you or them to do so.

Yes, I’m a human being. I acted too hastily and let my emotions make my decisions far too quickly. I agree, I should not have ‘boycotted’ the system so soon, but sometimes the time to act is immediately and that’s what I did.

I also explained myself already about some of the things I said which were misinterpreted and soon turned into words that I didn’t even know what they meant any more. I looked back and thought to myself- ‘how did this turn into a debate about quality when I wasn’t starting my argument based on anyone else’s custom wears but my own?’ I feel as though I was baited into a stupid debate that caused a bunch of word vomit that I didn’t mean.

And yes, people sometimes say things they don’t actually mean, so don’t tell me I did mean them, because I already explained this and also already apologized for hurting feelings. If you can’t accept that, that is no longer my problem.

I just don’t see why there is a need to continue to drag all of this out when none of what I did actually affected you in any way shape or form except that now you will no longer buy from me, but like Dio said, I don’t think I’ll be missing out much on your business anyways. If you felt the need to actually make any resolution or be mature in any shape or form- it would have been wiser to talk to me directly and express your feelings rather than as was also stated, post anonymously on this blog to somehow make yourself feel better.

Bravo.

Now just let it go and move on already.

subetaconfessions2:

Custom wears annoy the crap out of me. I hate seeing them on the forums because more often then not they’re very poorly crafted and I don’t understand how on earth 98% of the wears were allowed to be created. The feature was a nice idea but so far I’ve only seen one non-staff artist replicate the…

You fail to take into account one thing. Site items are not all the same either. Not all wears are made by the same artist and unless you follow the artist, that’s the only reason you can say you don’t know which is made by whom. I do know many people that can tell which staff artist made which wear because they have a distinct style. This is the case on ‘official’ items, so I don’t see why it matters that there is distinct style in custom wears either.

If all the wears were meant to look exactly the same, don’t you think that would make the system a little boring? What’s fun about having customs if you can’t tell who made them because they all look alike? People don’t want cloned items, they want uniqueness. If that wasn’t the case, the feature wouldn’t be as successful as it was and we would all still be buying items made only by staff. 

But, if subeta wanted every cw artist’s work to look exactly the same, their standards would be a lot higher than what they currently are. If they were not up to standard, they wouldn’t have been accepted by staff. Custom wears, in my opinion are meant to be recognizable- if they blended in so well, what would be the point of making them ‘custom’?

subetaconfessions2:

I have to say that Subeta placing the CW items in the Cash Shop has certainly revealed a lot about certain CW artists. It’s a shame really because now when I go to the cash shop, and see some of their work there…even if I really love it, I’m not going to buy it.

Thinking your art is better than…

I feel the need to explain myself, since I’m sure this is including me even if my name is not targeted. I don’t believe I actually ever stated I felt I was better than anyone else- but when my statement came out to talking about quality and there was a debate between things being sold for less could mean they’re lesser quality- I was not insinuating that I felt that other people’s customs were POS’s, it was more that I didn’t accurately explain myself and I chose my words poorly. I like some others are simply more practiced at doing customs so some of my feelings are that my work feels more ‘aesthetically pleasing’ as it were.
But I also look back on many of the first customs I made and I don’t really like them. I don’t think they’re that good at all- and so part of my feeling was assuming that items that end up in the cash shop would be the ones that aren’t as good as others- some of my old work included. It was not intended to come across as ‘better than thou’- but I made an assumption that was wrong of me and did make me out to look like an ass.
I’m sorry. It was not my intention to sound superior or better than anyone else. As I have explained before, my desire for the change was not because I felt superior, I simply wanted what was fair.

I’m sorry for being stupid. I don’t profess to be perfect and I make mistakes. The point is to learn and do better going forward. I just hope that others that feel this way can forgive me, that’s all I can ask.

Nope, this is better…

Lookit that, I did get better after all….

Heh…

Hell.. might as well show. xD;;

bird, dress and kitty are commissions. The rest is all mine. First one is based on my own hair, tho it’s longer than mine.